My 2012

A new year has begun. 2013, and good bye 2012. Big surprise, I know, but it's true.
It's also the first year since I was born to have four different digits, which is a quite cool, but completely useless fact, in my opinion.
I love totally pointless trivia, you see, and yet I suck at Trivial Pursuit, I really really do! Actually, I suck at most games, but I do enjoy playing them none the less!

I've wanted to come back to this for a long time, I think I'm just not that good with actually sharing my experiences, feelings and thoughts with "The world" (cuz the whoooole world read random E-type blogs!)
Now though, I'll try it again, since it is quite fun, and actually therapeutic for me to write. It's for my own benefit, not anyone else's. I saw a YouTuber, Yamimash, who made a vlog describing his year, and I got inspired, but as I don't do videos, this'll have to do!

I don't really recall everything that's happened, but I'll do my best to fill in as much as I can!

Let's begin..


January & February

My year started out pretty good, apart from finally getting really ill, after walking around and feeling down for a few weeks. I went to bed New Year's eve at about 1am, I think, and the day after I was just completely sick! I spend the whole day lying in my then girlfriend's parent's couch, and hardly able to eat or talk or do anything really.

I got well again, resumed my work at the retail store, which I had never actually planned on working at, but was now finishing my 3rd year there, despite massive change in colleagues, bosses, everything really. I enjoyed it though, I loved going to work, and I felt like I was good at it, and I do so enjoy not having any homework, but just getting off work, and then be free to do whatever!

I had started to wonder where I actually wanted to go in my life. I had considered trying to make a career in the company, but I wasn't really too hooked on that idea any longer. At least at some point during the year I wasn't, can't say if it had already started that early.

But still, I was happy, apart from the fact that my girlfriend lived in another part of the country, and we were only able to see each other, at most, once a week. Which was quite tough, considering I had work, she had school, and we still needed to keep in contact with family and friends as well. I really had a hard time having to be away from her so much. And I could tell it was bothering her too, perhaps even more, as she was the one who had moved away from nearly all she knew.


March

Now, I'm a member of something called "Foreningen af H.G.'ere" which is just a small group of people who host a party once a year for all the students that has attended that gymnasium. We meet a few times a year to plan for it and organize it, and just to hang out and have some fun. This year I'm pretty sure I weren't able to go. If I remember correctly, I helped with the setting up for the party, and then had to go see my dad in a play, or a play he had instructed I think, that year. He's part of an amateur theater group who makes a play every year as well. It was enjoyable too, I've been going since I was a kid, so it's a nice little tradition.

Later that month, I found out two of my good friends had recently broken up, not long after they had just moved in together even, which was really unfortunate, but they've been feeling it coming for a while, and we're all still good friends, at least I feel that way, hopefully they do too. I had known it for a while, don't recall who told me, but at an Easter party they officially announced it to everyone.
Funny part is, and I use funny very wrong here, since it was honestly just one of the worst things I've had to do, but earlier that same day, my girlfriend and I broke up, we just couldn't get it too work, when we only saw each other that rarely. So we talked for a long time, and ended up agreeing that that was the best thing to do, to relieve stress from the both of us. I'm still not sure that was the right choice, but that's just how choices go, I suppose. We still talk, not as often, not as much. I do miss her, but I am sure it was the best for both of us!


April & May

I can't recall April at all. Suppose I was mostly just down from the fact that I had broken up with my girlfriend, and I think that really kicked the idea that I needed to do some changes in my life. Since I had just been at the same job for 3 years, and so many of my friends were starting to study something, I realised I should probably educate myself some more.
So I talked to my bosses about it, and they were acceptant, however didn't seem to thrilled that I was planning on leaving altogether, instead of just going to part-time. I felt like I really needed a break from it, and I ended up with a 2-month summer vacation, which was pretty sweet.

So in May I turned 24. I'm not a big fan of throwing birthday parties, and I think this year was just my parents and me. Which was fine by me, a relaxing day and evening, eat at a restaraunt, and just taking it easy. I like that, I prefer small intimate parties to huge parties as well. Just feel much more comfortable in those settings. And actually, a couple of times this month there were small parties, not even "get hammered" parties, but just social get-togethers with a bunch of my friends.
This was also the month I handed in my resignation, since I had misunderstood how "a month" notice works, and apparently it's a month from the next 1st, but I was alright with that. Would probably have been a bit too much with 2 weeks more of doing mostly nothing.


June, July & August

So this was my last month of working, I felt odd finally leaving it behind, since it had been such a huge part of my identity for so long. Got some nice good byes, even though I still see a lot of them, and visit the store now and then, to see how it's going, and end up spending way too much time there catching up.
Then Roskilde Festival, my... 6th year, with my regular group of friends plus some Roskilde-only acquaintances, this was the first year I was sleeping in a tent by myself however. And it was boring, and uncomfortable, and loud (the new camping scene, Apollo, which played horrible music, in my taste, all night was almost right besides ud), and I'm old, so I only ended up sleeping at the area 2 nights I think, then I went home to sleep each night.
We had also spend the entire day in the queue, and then everyone just stormed the fence, so we were in a pretty sour mood at first, luckily that quickly changed as we got settled in, with our dumb-as-fuck neighbours. Can't be helped with that many people at one place I suppose. It ended up being good, saw some great shows, had fun, enjoyed the festival much as I always do, and am going next year as well, though probably in the luxurious way and go back home to get a good night's sleep each night.

I can't really remember all I did with my two months vacation, or when I did what, but I visited my big brother, whom I rarely see as we live far away from each other as well. Spend a week at his house, playing games, helping out, having fun. Seeing my niece for the first time, and she was what, nearly turning 3, it saddens me to only be able to see him so rarely, and her even less!
My sister's moving around as well, and busy with odd jobs all over the place, so I don't get to see her often either. I've never been much of a social person, in any regards, but I do really enjoy spending time with people, however lousy I am at doing it! I get told off for this by my good friends way too often, so I definitely need to work on that!


September and onwards...

Yes, I got lazy and decided to put the rest of the months in just this one.

I started my education in September. First few days were tough, as I'm very shy, not good at starting conversations with people I don't know, and generally consider myself to be very socially awkward. I did manage to talk to a few people that day, ended up in the same class as them as well, which I was quite happy about. Also, after a while, I got better at talking to a lot of other people in the class, and actually felt quite good socially about where I was, had fun, and really liked studying again after a 4 year break.

However that did change not all that long into it. I'm not sure exactly what has made me doubt if it is the direction I want to take, I've no idea what else to do, I just don't feel the same exitement about going to school as I did at first. I wasn't, and aren't, motivated anymore, and nothing is worse than doing something that you don't really feel like doing. I'm just not sure what to do about it, so for now, I'll stick with it at least through my first practic semester, and then I'll hopefully be able to decide whether or not I'm really meant for it. I need to keep my eyes on the target and remember that I'm doing this to be able to read something else, something that has my interest much more, than this apparently has.
I'm just glad that I'm not the only one feeling like this, most of my friends has had the same feeling when they first started out with their educations, but I just don't know... Enough of that!

My mum turned 60 this year! In December, and my brother was home visiting for a couple of days, as was my sister and her boyfriend very shortly. Played a bunch of computer games with my brother, and on mum's birthday, we had a 20 minute fireworks show, since my sister and her special other work with fireworks, so they had brought a bunch with them. That was the most spectacular show I had ever seen, I was so amazed!

This was also the year, I found a new community online, haven't really had online friends for many years, apart from a select few from way back when! I don't exactly remember how or why, but I started watching some Let's Plays on YouTube, and stumbled upon This particular video of a guy named MarkiplierGAME.

I had never really used YouTube before, only when someone sent a link to something, I might watch it, but this made me actually get really into it. And I'm glad I did, since this guy is amazing. Funny, and really a great person, doing livestreams to raise money for charity causes. This year his goal is 50.000$ which he would achieve just by each of his followers donating a single dollar. But that sure is quite an effort! And the people that I've met through this guy has just become such a huge part of my life, and I really appreciate feeling so accepted and loved by these people I've never met, but feel so connected to!

That's all I have to say for now, I guess it is enough, so take care everyone, look out and care for each other and I hope you will have the best year you've had so far in your life!

And this is the reason I admire this guy so much!

~ Sunflake