Long awaited (by nobody)

I haven't written anything on here all year I feel. I think actually it's been more than a year, didn't stop to check. Not that I've nothing to tell, there's plenty. It's more that I don't feel the need to share any of it. Thoughts, emotions, actions, it's all things I deal with by myself, because I can't find a way to put any of it into words. I think for now, I will just ramble...

I need a new car. Desperately need one. My current one needs to go to the scrap yard, as it is much too broken to fix. I'm going to buy a brand new one instead. There's a lot of these smaller cars, that you can get for a really cheap monthly expense. Now I sound like an advert for it, but it does seem really smart. Cheaper than buying a new used car every other year, without a doubt. Looking at different options currently.

I still have my two dogs. Or Nen's dogs, since if we ever were to break up, she'd take them with her. Which would likely devastate me even more than losing her. Although that would also make me feel sad. I'd probably cry. Sometimes I feel like crying, just as it all seems so hopeless. I want to, need to, move out from the basement of my parent's house. I need a place to call my own. To do with as I please. But bringing two dogs narrows down the choices somewhat, ridiculous that you can't just decide about your own home if you will have pets. Stupid associations!

I start everything with "I" and it bugs me immensely. Somebody make it stop. Change it. I can't have it all look like this, it's awful to me.

Today I'm really tired. I generally don't sleep enough. Early, and long, hours at work, and we never feel like going to bed too early, since that leaves us with less time to spend together on each other, talking, laughing. A nap would do wonders, but then tonight it would probably make it even tougher to fall asleep. So I'll push through. Maybe just start going to bed a little earlier on specific days. 8 hours occasionally could seriously improve my waking hours. I'm supposed to work out again, way more, and I want to, but when I am tired, I just make up excuses (like being too tired) and it's... tiresome. I really want to better my physical condition, and mental, already eating way healthier than I ever thought I would. Playing less video-games although that's not directly a good thing to me,

Lost my train of thought...

First run of the year

We're a few days into 2015, so far it isn't awful (knock on wood) so who knows, maybe it will actually turn out to be a year worth remembering. I'd like to think so, that's for certain!

Yesterday we drove Moisha to the airport, she had been here since just before Christmas, to spend some time here due to... circumstances.
Pretty much everything we had planned didn't happen, but we did go to Tivoli, not trying anything because it was too cold and I've never known where to buy tickets.
We always just got the bracelets, but now I know for next time. Hopefully it'll be in the summer, so we can actually enjoy the rides. Might finally be able to try "Det Gyldne Tårn" which I would love!

Aaaand my dog just peed inside. Again. On her carpet where she lies down to rest, it is unbelievable. Hopefully it's the different food, we'll return to normal tomorrow, but dear, it is annoying. She never ever used to have any issues with being housebroken before. Awful.

From tomorrow, I will also be starting my new shifts at work, which means no more Friday nights, so we can finally get to spend some evenings with friends, that is something that has been lacking the past few months. I'm excited about that.

This year I will also start working out again, more, stick to it. We just had our first run, of about 5 km. today. We have to keep that up this year, I really need to be in better shape, I feel like my body is collapsing just from the first 5 minutes, that is ridiculous!

I hope all of you will stick to your resolutions, if you made any, and that this year will be a beautiful one for all!

~ Sunflake

A new year

A better year. Hopefully. 2014 was actually pretty good for the first half, then the second half came along and ruined it all. I did not like it, and I'm happy to move on from it!

This year I'll do more to socialise, keep up with friends and family, meet more often with people, and isolate myself a lot less. I guess I'll also try to keep up this thing more frequently, God only knows how well my promises to myself usually end up.

I started learning Dutch, or attempting to at least, there's an app, Duolingo, I don't think it'll make me great at it, but maybe give me more of an understanding of it. Just figured it could be fun. Going to do a little of that every day as well.

Spent the New Years eve with Nennah, her sister Moisha and my best friend Rasmus, whom I see way too rarely, we'll try again this year to make a habit of meeting up.
It was a really fun evening, had a grill we made our food on downstairs while watching a movie, plenty of music, and enough to drink. Even too much for some.

Hope you all had a fun evening and stay safe in the new year!
See you all in 2015!

~ Sunflake