The City is Turning Orange

I'm sitting on a bench outside of the school. I made it just before classes start, but obviously she had already gone inside. Guess I'll just sit here and wait for a kiss once she's done. She brought cake and cookies, and I really hope there will be some left, although I don't think so. She baked the same cake on my birthday and it is so tasty, I would eat the entire thing if I could. Instead I'm drinking my 1 liter of juice. That's my breakfast today as I am incapable of getting up on time it seems.

I dropped the car off for it's service half an hour ago. The first one. It feels weird giving your keys away to someone else, even if they did have it for a short while before I initially for it. It's mine. It needs to be vacuumed, I didn't manage to do that beforehand. At least I got the way too many receipts out first so it looks somewhat cared for. Which it is, I like my car very much!

Only a few days left 'til the festival now. They've hung up the Orange Feeling flags all along the pedestrian area. Go Orange, Shape Orange they say. It's a lot of orange, you'd almost think you were witnessing a Dutch royal holiday. Even my breakfast juice is orange, though mostly on colour as it has a bunch of different fruits in it. I don't like plain orange juice, actually I just don't like oranges in any shape. We're buying our tent today, it's a little last minute, but it fit best into our plans to get it done today. Then we just need to try it out once we get back home. And we might need an assortment of other camping gear. But mostly a tent, last year we bought a crap one and it couldn't withstand the tiniest of drizzles. We're not going to make that mistake again. Not this year.

She brought me cake! And a cookie, I'm so happy! She also brought me water which is really nice because I'm burning up out here and it's not even that warm, I don't know how I will survive a week outside, I might and up as nothing but a pile of ash or melted skin and bones. But for now I will survive by the grace of Nennah!

I completely forgot about today. Today is Sankt Hans, which means bonfires and parties all over the country. I think I'm skipping it this year, as I've forgotten about it and by now it's pretty late. It's not important anyway, what is important today is that my niece is turning 2 years old today! Two whole years, it is crazy to think about! I remember her being so tiny she was barely a speck. She's even cuter now, so adorable. Biggest happy birthday ever cutest EBay!

~ Sunflake

My Grey day

Today we're going to Copenhagen to meet a fellow Poets of The Fall fan. That's not why we're meeting up with her, but it's the main thing I know about her. She's been talking to Nen on IG, and they decided to arrange a date, and I am lucky enough to tag along, as well as her boyfriend so I'm sure it's going to be a nice trip. Also it's a trip to Copenhagen which is usually nice. Going to eat at Simple Raw and talk and afterwards Nen and I will go to Nice Cream for some added dessert.

I've gotten this app installed on my phone so I can blog on the go, which is really convenient if I want to return to using this at least 4 times a year. Which is nice. As long as it works that is, I've no idea, but I decided to at least give it a shot.

Nen passed her oral exam today as well, and I am so proud of her! She's incredible, I could never learn a second language that fast, and this is her third! I am impressed by her every day!

So apparently I am a humongous idiot! That's not really much of a surprise, but it's really annoying! But I messed up driving to the station so we ended up being a little late, when initially we were actually ahead of time. Oops. I'm sorry. I hope they won't mind it too much, it's not the greatest of impressions to give somebody. I think they're pretty tolerant of morons though. Hoping so. As long as we're currently on the right train, because I'm not sure I will be alive to see tomorrow if this is another mistake.
I need to pee.

I'm alive. We met up with our new friends a the central station, exchanged greetings and hugs and went on our way to the restaurant. I got a burger, and it was so damn good! I don't get burgers that often and this one was high up there, recommended. Along with a strawberry-apple-ginger juice, I think was the mix. It definitely tasted nice, although next time I'll take a cocoa, because I tasted a sip from that and holy Hell, I could have devoured the entire drink in a second, They were so nice to talk to, easy and fun, I hope they felt the same way, it would be cool to meet them again some day. 

Also the Blogger app is an un-updated piece of trash. But I think I need it just to easily write down during the day, then I'll upload from home.

The weather improved as well, so I ended up being too hot, I think we all did, but it was still a really lovely afternoon with these two, so thank you for spending your day with us!

~ Sunflake

Roskilde Festival!

This blog will have nearly nothing to do with Roskilde Festival. Or this entry won't at least, I might make one afterwards. Or in a year, because who needs to update more than that, right? This keeps it more interesting, because of plenty of very good reasons.

What I really wanted to talk about was yoga. Yes, hold on now, I've done yoga. I know, it's strange, but as I am lazy as ever, and really want to get into some kind of shape, this is what I'll be doing. I've seen what it's done to my girlfriend, and it's worth a shot I'll say. I've only done it this very morning. Will do it again tonight. Very beginner stuff, because honestly, I'm about as strong and flexible as a dead twig. And that might even be pushing it. So I will keep at it, and eventually I might even know some of the words they use. Because that, as we know, is the main thing.

I'm also encouraging my girlfriend to start blogging her life, yoga, diet, and general interests and activities. But I guess I can't really say much when I can barely do this once a year. Who knows, it might become a thing again for me, I do enjoy just typing my thoughts out as they come. Although it does become even more of a mess on paper than it is in my head, I think. Perhaps not. And even so, who cares? It's just fun to actually be writing.

My car needs to go to service. Actually, it needs to go to service 1500 km ago, but who's counting, except for the counter in my car, which is, indeed, counting. But it is going to service on Thursday, and meanwhile we'll be shopping necessities (I cannot believe I actually got the spelling on that right, right away), for Roskilde, like a tent and... Whatever else we are in need of, I'm not sure what we currently have lying around here, it's big house! We're lucky to get to place our tent with some really good friends we spend time with last year, many thanks to them for letting us join them, we appreciate it more than I can express. I'm not too good at expressing myself, so know that I am more grateful than I sound. Please.

Then on Friday, because it's a long week, and I am actually off work for it, and the following two weeks, which I highly needed because I was growing so tired of everyday, so it's nice to get a break from it all. What I wanted to say was that on Friday I'll go to see my doctor to get a test done to find out if I might have some mild case of depression, as I've been feeling off lately, more than I've been used to. Never was one for much emotion or anything like that, but recently it's been... less. Nothing seems to mean a thing for me and I just can't really get myself motivated for anything. Which is how I've always been actually, so it might just be that I am lousy excuse for a human being. Time will tell.

Oh, and I promised Nen that if she does indeed decide to start her blogging adventure, to act as her photographer. I love taking pictures, I should use this opportunity of free time to travel around and capture some images of the things I find pretty looking. Need to use the camera function on my phone for something. So why not. Now I'll eat some chocolate chip cookies, because the lady is baking. And they smell delicious, so they won't last long.

Enjoy your summer, here's to better weather!

~ Sunflake

Apparently blogger has also decided to ruin my background and header image so now I get to spend time on that, which is fun on a computer that takes a full minute to load Google. Sigh.

Okay, that's going to wait 'til another day, I have nothing of what I need on my laptop. Whoops. Enjoy the simplest template you've ever seen!

Long awaited (by nobody)

I haven't written anything on here all year I feel. I think actually it's been more than a year, didn't stop to check. Not that I've nothing to tell, there's plenty. It's more that I don't feel the need to share any of it. Thoughts, emotions, actions, it's all things I deal with by myself, because I can't find a way to put any of it into words. I think for now, I will just ramble...

I need a new car. Desperately need one. My current one needs to go to the scrap yard, as it is much too broken to fix. I'm going to buy a brand new one instead. There's a lot of these smaller cars, that you can get for a really cheap monthly expense. Now I sound like an advert for it, but it does seem really smart. Cheaper than buying a new used car every other year, without a doubt. Looking at different options currently.

I still have my two dogs. Or Nen's dogs, since if we ever were to break up, she'd take them with her. Which would likely devastate me even more than losing her. Although that would also make me feel sad. I'd probably cry. Sometimes I feel like crying, just as it all seems so hopeless. I want to, need to, move out from the basement of my parent's house. I need a place to call my own. To do with as I please. But bringing two dogs narrows down the choices somewhat, ridiculous that you can't just decide about your own home if you will have pets. Stupid associations!

I start everything with "I" and it bugs me immensely. Somebody make it stop. Change it. I can't have it all look like this, it's awful to me.

Today I'm really tired. I generally don't sleep enough. Early, and long, hours at work, and we never feel like going to bed too early, since that leaves us with less time to spend together on each other, talking, laughing. A nap would do wonders, but then tonight it would probably make it even tougher to fall asleep. So I'll push through. Maybe just start going to bed a little earlier on specific days. 8 hours occasionally could seriously improve my waking hours. I'm supposed to work out again, way more, and I want to, but when I am tired, I just make up excuses (like being too tired) and it's... tiresome. I really want to better my physical condition, and mental, already eating way healthier than I ever thought I would. Playing less video-games although that's not directly a good thing to me,

Lost my train of thought...

First run of the year

We're a few days into 2015, so far it isn't awful (knock on wood) so who knows, maybe it will actually turn out to be a year worth remembering. I'd like to think so, that's for certain!

Yesterday we drove Moisha to the airport, she had been here since just before Christmas, to spend some time here due to... circumstances.
Pretty much everything we had planned didn't happen, but we did go to Tivoli, not trying anything because it was too cold and I've never known where to buy tickets.
We always just got the bracelets, but now I know for next time. Hopefully it'll be in the summer, so we can actually enjoy the rides. Might finally be able to try "Det Gyldne Tårn" which I would love!

Aaaand my dog just peed inside. Again. On her carpet where she lies down to rest, it is unbelievable. Hopefully it's the different food, we'll return to normal tomorrow, but dear, it is annoying. She never ever used to have any issues with being housebroken before. Awful.

From tomorrow, I will also be starting my new shifts at work, which means no more Friday nights, so we can finally get to spend some evenings with friends, that is something that has been lacking the past few months. I'm excited about that.

This year I will also start working out again, more, stick to it. We just had our first run, of about 5 km. today. We have to keep that up this year, I really need to be in better shape, I feel like my body is collapsing just from the first 5 minutes, that is ridiculous!

I hope all of you will stick to your resolutions, if you made any, and that this year will be a beautiful one for all!

~ Sunflake

A new year

A better year. Hopefully. 2014 was actually pretty good for the first half, then the second half came along and ruined it all. I did not like it, and I'm happy to move on from it!

This year I'll do more to socialise, keep up with friends and family, meet more often with people, and isolate myself a lot less. I guess I'll also try to keep up this thing more frequently, God only knows how well my promises to myself usually end up.

I started learning Dutch, or attempting to at least, there's an app, Duolingo, I don't think it'll make me great at it, but maybe give me more of an understanding of it. Just figured it could be fun. Going to do a little of that every day as well.

Spent the New Years eve with Nennah, her sister Moisha and my best friend Rasmus, whom I see way too rarely, we'll try again this year to make a habit of meeting up.
It was a really fun evening, had a grill we made our food on downstairs while watching a movie, plenty of music, and enough to drink. Even too much for some.

Hope you all had a fun evening and stay safe in the new year!
See you all in 2015!

~ Sunflake

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