Long awaited (by nobody)

I haven't written anything on here all year I feel. I think actually it's been more than a year, didn't stop to check. Not that I've nothing to tell, there's plenty. It's more that I don't feel the need to share any of it. Thoughts, emotions, actions, it's all things I deal with by myself, because I can't find a way to put any of it into words. I think for now, I will just ramble...

I need a new car. Desperately need one. My current one needs to go to the scrap yard, as it is much too broken to fix. I'm going to buy a brand new one instead. There's a lot of these smaller cars, that you can get for a really cheap monthly expense. Now I sound like an advert for it, but it does seem really smart. Cheaper than buying a new used car every other year, without a doubt. Looking at different options currently.

I still have my two dogs. Or Nen's dogs, since if we ever were to break up, she'd take them with her. Which would likely devastate me even more than losing her. Although that would also make me feel sad. I'd probably cry. Sometimes I feel like crying, just as it all seems so hopeless. I want to, need to, move out from the basement of my parent's house. I need a place to call my own. To do with as I please. But bringing two dogs narrows down the choices somewhat, ridiculous that you can't just decide about your own home if you will have pets. Stupid associations!

I start everything with "I" and it bugs me immensely. Somebody make it stop. Change it. I can't have it all look like this, it's awful to me.

Today I'm really tired. I generally don't sleep enough. Early, and long, hours at work, and we never feel like going to bed too early, since that leaves us with less time to spend together on each other, talking, laughing. A nap would do wonders, but then tonight it would probably make it even tougher to fall asleep. So I'll push through. Maybe just start going to bed a little earlier on specific days. 8 hours occasionally could seriously improve my waking hours. I'm supposed to work out again, way more, and I want to, but when I am tired, I just make up excuses (like being too tired) and it's... tiresome. I really want to better my physical condition, and mental, already eating way healthier than I ever thought I would. Playing less video-games although that's not directly a good thing to me,

Lost my train of thought...